N.B. I originally wanted to write this essay as a Facebook post—a tribute to my old ways—but eventually decided against it due to the risk of being subjected to what I'll call the "algorithm invisibility." I think that this reflection deserves a space that actually respects its contents. My physical copies of the following musical [...]

I’m nothing but a machine, Hearing other’s pain but not my own; Why should I catch up with y'all? Frogs croak in the dead of night—I won’t wait for you to understand, Thoughts disappear in a flash. Riding my ‘unwanted' box, I float in waters beyond your reach—How can I land on the moon? Cities [...]

I admit that being a composer is not enough for me. Sure, exploring sounds and making "cool" stuff is trendy nowadays. However, I'm not primarily interested in going with that flow. I also think of "cool" as problematic many times, with all its baggages of class privilege, positionality, hegemony, even capitalist machinations...in short, things that [...]